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Exploring Gender Identity

Now that I have Arrived

on February 17, 2016

Tropical Trail Does transition ever end? For those who are transgender this question will likely be answered differently over time. I used to think that it would all be different once I transitioned to living as the woman I am. Wrong. Well I suppose things are very different, but the things which really matter have not changed. I am still basically the same person, inside. My personality has changed a bit, however my thoughts and beliefs have not. If any change has occurred there it has nothing to do with being transgender. Thoughts and beliefs change because we choose them too. So let me get into the power of chemical wonder, hormones. You are what you eat and if you are taking hormones or even if you are getting them through the environment, food, drink, etc. things will change drastically. The question of which comes first is hard to prove if not impossible. Are we transgender because of environmental chemical influence or because of genetic, inborn causes? I feel it is a combination of both. And most likely it is a different combination of both for each of us. During transition our outer world and appearance changes drastically, but as for the inner world, not so much.  So let’s make sure we are clear here, I am speaking of gender. My gender has not changed and is clearer now, so the success here is that I now know myself better than I ever have! Perhaps this is the point of the whole experience.

What is not so clear is my sexuality. I am attracted to the female form more so than the male form, but both are beautiful and enjoyable. The most attract feature to me is personality and chemistry. Certain people are just exciting to me for reasons I have no clue. So by definition this makes me Pansexual although lately I have chosen asexuality. All the books I read insist that sexual orientation is fixed at birth so who am I to argue? I will say that social expectation is a strong factor in shaping the behavior of an individual, especially when they are young. The fear of persecution has lead many a person astray, including myself. So now that I have arrived, (lol) Who am I? I am the same person who started this journey only I am more aware of my nature and my desires. I am a person who dresses and acts a certain way whether it conforms to social construct or not. I am a person who is being the most loving I know how and seeking to expand this state of being. I choose Love and forgive any other perception. I live in a loving world and for this I am deeply grateful.

Sequoia Elisabeth

OnenessMinistry.info and Transness.org

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